How can you love someone if his name never appeared in your head?! How can you love someone with trying hard to love him?! How can you love someone without wondering what he does?! How can you love someone without ever feel the butterflies flying in your stomach?! Is that love or just trying to loving?
How can you be in a relationship without any excitement?! How can you be in a relationship without being missed?! How can you be in a relationship without a sense of belonging?! What does the relationship’s looks like?! Does it seems gonna work?!
How does it looks?? Is that gonna work? I don’t think so. How could you love someone but you want them to be with another people?!
Is it sounds like a relationship? I don’t think so.
So why we keep it?? Why we work on so hard to keep the relationship running?!
And what am I supposed to do?? Break up!! What??!! Hey, but at least you trying to work on the relationships, right?! So now you already realized it, then you have to be responsible with be the break-up guy. Dammit!! I don’t wanna be the bad guy who did the break-up thing. I’m not the bad guy and I didn’t make a mistakes.
Hey, wake up! You didn’t make any mistakes. Everyone is entitled to seek the best for themself. Anyway, make a first move to breaking up the relationship. isn’t mean you are the bad guy. Sometimes it means you are the first people that realize if you two make this relationships go on and on, it will be a big disasters and you two will get really hurt or maybe you two will hurt each other more worse than now.
Sometimes truth is so painful. But we gotta accept the reality and someone gotta be brave to say it.
Trust me, if you keep the relationship go on, you gonna be the real bad guy.

Syaza Luthfani Udyaputri